problems relating to father/men?
“Sun square Pluto A square formed between the Sun and Pluto shows a tendency for willfulness to build up in your nature. As the pressures become greater, you are apt to explode. This may be a puzzlement to those around you because most of the time you are so self-restrained and in perfect control. Perhaps there is a frustrated ambition for power and authority. This is an aspect often associated with a "revolutionary spirit.” There is an enigma in your personality, and you are defensive about forming close emotional ties. You have executive ability and the talent for managing ambitious enterprises. You must learn the art of compromise if you are striving to get far in life. This may not come easily for you unless it is shown elsewhere in the chart. With compromise and understanding of the egos of others, this is a power aspect. “ http://www.skyscript.co.uk/sunaspects.html#suspl
basic natal aspects
Thanks. I lost my father early on, and it’s true I work mostly with women. I relate to some extent to this but not to this at all: “You must learn the art of compromise if you are striving to get far in life.” I feel I compromise too much. And what’s the use of being enigmatic and revolutionary? What’s useful about that? Thanks if you can enlighten me little bit more. What does one with aspect improve in forming close emotional ties?
Pluto in 4th House – angular
Family deaths in family early years. A strong desire to be the master in your own home. Deep domestic roots and desire to improve conditions. Also occult interests in later years. (all water houses are psychic in nature). Power struggles with family members. Pluto here suggests they have suffered from an above average amount of frustration during childhood and adolescence with strong controlling parents. Intense about holding family together. Very protective of home and want control thereof. Love of nature dousing geology
with five out of 10 in mutable and Saturn singleton I’m not surprised you feel like having to compromise. With mutable on the Angles to
although saturn is a singleton you don’t lack air element with FOUR in air houses and air Ascendant. I also notice progressed mercury has not turned retrograde, this should make you more instrospective, considered your words more, perhaps communicate less.
Bullying definitely seems to be related to Sun square Pluto and Pluto Square Sun as it is all about a heightened sense of power in the self. It reminds me of Erikson’s stages of developmental psychology. You talked about trust issues, and it might have something to do with the earliest infancy stage, where infants are going through trust/mistrust and if trust is not gained there, they grow up feeling vulnerable. When you talked about your small height in school, it brings out that physical consequence of Sun square Pluto, like the bigger the height, the more powerful you are. The sun really brings out physical traits like height as it is that outward expression of the self. At that time in your life, you were feeling the tension of not meeting up to those around you in height and control. It may not be so ironic that those who were bullying you at first became your friends because they saw the same “not my friend, then you’re my enemy” attitude in you. Bullies have that alienation from the self and others. And it seems like the Sun square Pluto aspect is alienating as one has to deal with struggles within the self, and you can’t let anyone in till you figure yourself out and get yourself in one piece.
this great thread continued here