Here a general idea of this aspect:
When the Black Moon Lilith is located on the MC, or conjunct the Ascendant or Sun, it is in a strongly placed position. There is a theme of banishment and exile, and internal marginalisation. We are challenged to bring our power back out of exile and if we do not, the energy becomes destructive. Part of the truth of Lilith is to be true to that energy, embracing it and finding a way to express it without alienation. Lilith also compels us to experience periodic time out or exile and spend time away from others, to renew the self, going to the metaphorical menstrual hut.
Pure Lilith energy is instinctual and demands acknowledgement, if not, there is often a heavy sacrifice. To allow and honour death, pain and grief is to make that tribute. Our society sanitises grief and pain, not allowing it its full consideration. The house placement of the Black Moon Lilith, its aspects to other planets, tell us something about what we must sacrifice and honour in the spiral cycle. We may need to go back to our childhood and look at feelings of persecution, disempowerment and work out a way to re-empower ourselves without the necessity of bullying and ‘power-over’ tactics.
The mystery of the laws of cycles is connected with Lilith, birth, harvest and death. We need to honour these cycles, especially to sacrifice and let it go, allowing something new to be born. If we hold on to it, it just loses its energy anyway. This kind of transformation can be very Plutonic.
my Sun conjuncts retrograde true Black Moon Lilith with 21 minutes of arc, and I believe that it indicates my liberalism, feminism,strong feminine nature as my father having those traits. I read that black moon lilith is a point of rejection. I never knew my father. I also fought against my stepfather,and I haven’t seen him since 1991. I feel that my mom embodies Lilith in my life. She has a lot of Lilith traits. I grew up loving but also hating her and fearing her at the same time. I know that as her son and that this is my chart, these same energies are in me, and I have to keep the black moon lilith traits in check. I am also no stranger to succubus dreams/sleep paralysis that scare the hell out of me. the black moon lilith being based on the moon’s orbit can be connected to the unconscious.
Just a hint: You should take a deep look at the relationship with your father in order to understand how this aspect works. Did you rebel and how did he react? Did you inherit a pattern of behaviour to men in general because of that? How do you view sex? You probably despise sex as an assertion of power. So, it’s up to you to develop your own idea of sexuality, but you need to transcend the polarities first, which can be greatly enhanced by utilizing your Moon and Venus placements and aspects.
Lilith conjunct Sun is observed to make a native self-aggrandizing and generous – but not in an honest and genuine way. It can actually be a sign of tendency to have sex in public, and I observed it in woman who had a deep need to destroy marriages which in their perception were not based on free and open expression of love. It can also bring health problems related to heart and circulation.
In eight house Lilith is actually observed to possibly shorten lifespan through excessive sex, and the conflicts with partners can actually turn deadly.